**Backstory**
I'm originally from Muskoka.
Google it. It's gorgeous.
It's also nothing more than a tourist town that gives you roughly two months to make all the money that you can before everything shuts down again. Yet I managed to not only get but hold a job there. Now, I'm not saying by any means that I made the right choice quitting the job I had to move in with a boy. But I was so in love and couldn't stand to be away from him anymore. Not to mention that I was still living with my ex and hating every second of my life.
I screwed up. Badly. And a lot. But truth be told I've never cared for anybody but myself before and it screwed me up, I didn't know how to deal. Which sounds like a sad excuse for a 26 year old but trust me, if you knew me before, I could have cared less about anyone but myself - but I'm sure you'll learn more about my backstory as this blog continues. And it seems no matter how hard I try, things just keep getting worse.
I've probably sent out well over 500 resumes in the last eight months. Someone's gotta call soon, right?
Either way, this blog is supposed to be about my personal life as well as my journey to being a freelancer, or figuring out a way to make the interwebz work for me, or whatever. I just want the boy I love to love me as much as he did, as much as I love him.
I just want this back.
Ah well, enough blubbering. The point is I have to make this work, I'm gonna make this work. And hopefully, despite how incredibly unlucky I am, I'll be able to scrounge up enough luck to get him back. Like I had him. Because seeing him like this kills me and makes me feel worse about myself than I ever have. Because I know it's my fault.
Okay okay, before I go on another sob story, I'm gonna sign off. Hope you're all enjoying the wonderful sunshine out there!
And remember, if you're looking for a freelance writer, think Shanda de Vries :)
“Just know, when you truly want success, you’ll never give up on it. No matter how bad the situation may get.” - Unknown
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